Thanks for the Choki-Choki.

The first time we’d met,i looked into her eyes and i said slowly in my head “ owhh,this is fazlina kassim.The one people used to spoke of,one of the famouse girl in school.Her active in athlete that can’t be compare of.I never realised that i could be one of her bestest friend and so do her to me.Two days ago,on 14th April 2012,Allah had calls for her.Three days before her mourns day,we celebrates her birthday infront of her house.She was talkative,and all the words triggers a thousand answer on her death date.

Situation 1

Me : Faz,jujur la jawab soalan aku.Aku ni putih tak ?

Faz : Kau lah member aku paling hensem (teasing me),ikut mak kaulaa.mak kau putih kan ?

Situation 2

Faz : Cuba Korang teka jam tangan aku ni berapa harga ?

We : entah ? rm60 ? rm150 ? kan kan ?

Faz : hee rm6 je,nanti aku belikan untuk kau eh bieb.

Situation 3

Faz : Thanks bieb bagi aku cupcakes,nanti birthday kau jangan diman sangat.hehe

Bieb : alaa banyaklah kau

Faz : nanti birthday kau kita buat bakar-bakar kat belakang rumah zai nak ?

Me : okay,naisee boleh je.

Situation 4

Faz : zai,bet dgn aku jom yang jangan antara kita berdua couple dalam masa setahun ni .

Me : serious ? okay,janji eh ?

Faz : janji

Situation 5

Faz : weh zai,aini cari kau.Die tanya aku “fazlina,mane laki kau ? “

Me : then kau jawab ape ?

Faz : kau bayangkanlah nizam dalam kelas tu dengar macamane.aku jawab kau busy nasyid.

Situation 6

Me : Faz,kau nak kahwin umur berapa ?

Faz : Entahlah zai,ade rezeki aku,aku kahwin terus.taknak tangguh-tangguh.

 Situation 7

Me : Faz,aku cuak dowhh.Esok aku nak g jumpa die first time.

Faz : hmm rileks laa,jap kau date date ni ade duit tak ?

Me : Ade siket,RM30.

Faz : kau ni nak keluar dengan perempuan takde duit.Dah,nanti aku bagi sikit.

Situation 8

Me : Hello faz sihat ?

Faz : haaa,pehal kau call aku malam-malam ni boy ?

Me : alaa,esok 8 april kan ? kene lah wish.

Faz : tapi lagi 10minit sebelum pkul 12 la zaii

Me : Kire aku yang first la ni ? haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAZ.

Faz : alololo,thanks boy.nanti aku dapat free call nanti aku call korang semua okay.

Fazlina,even how far our distance are,you were always be my best friends ever.You aren’t just a friend,you were my shoulder when i get myself down.You were the one who use to tease me,motivate me at any cost.You’re the one who used to swallow all the problems all by yourself.Your words will be remembered at any cost faz,i will always think of you.Nurfazlina binti Mohammad Kassim,al fatihah.

8th April 1992 - 14th April 2012

My Iron Lung

" They came out of nowhere,but it turns out they've been here long before my existence "

The first was Creep,that i'd listened and yeah it's really-really creep me out like " what in the world is he saying ? ".I can't hear the lyrics,and the melody was freakin flabby.But then slowly i began to read its lyrics,and dear lord it's really stabs me.Later on,i'd listened to Street Spirit and again the lyrics keeps stabbing me.CHIAKK CHIAKK CHIAKK ! right through my chest,sort of like that.For early,they was just became my favourite band but  when after Iana left me,all of their song really help me out and i realised they weren't just a band that creats song,they're the musicians that tells story not to kneel on your knees so easily.I can live without a girl next to me,but i can't breath my days without listening to their song,each day.Even how far your music genre are,metal,hardcore,alternative, or indie's,slowly it will circling around that you'll be like to radiohead.I was once in a coma's pattern,and it turns out their music is the one who made me back alive.

Atoms for Peace.

" We voted for them,we hailed and worship them.The politicians "

Their positions,their powers.They rule their nations in different ways,each of it.But they actually have the same ideology,a lust to build a nuclear factory.They said it was for protection againts any enemy that wanted to wag a war with them.But it turns out,it's for showing the power itself,to frightened the other nations.The lust of showing it to them,thought their power was above god.They lost themself,yes the politicians." Little Boy " and " Fat Man ",was only the beginning that leads us to these days.We watched the news,that United State went crazy to stop Iran's project nuclear.Think it back,how's Israel's ? we saw the news says they're just bomb the palestinians.Is it a normal bomb ? What if they use nuclear bomb to wipe them but in a small scales ? slowly the palestinians dies,day by days.We saw them died in a rocket stirkes,but what if the rockets filled with uraniums that can cause a thousands of death.It wasn't just a normal war,it's a palestinians massacres that goes for centuries.

"We want the best for our future,but is these their home when we're gone someday?"

I may not have the powers,I may not have an ooportunity position on politicians.But i have the guts to spread my words to tell everyone who care enough about worlds oppression.They can take our money,they can rob our land,they can use nuclear weapons to wipe us all.But hell they can't take our dignity,because those who wag a war is those who actually scare of their own shadows.It starts when we choose who will holds the main positions in political.Think future,not current.

Apabila terlalu sunyi,inilah hasilnya.

Here's What i'd gained,Here's what i'd snap and Here's what i'd captured.It may be pretty lame,as long as i'm happy.It's been decades tak snap gambar and then editing,and yes all of these came from just a normal camera,LUMIX pula tu.Just a little settings on the camera,wear earphones listening to " Street Spirit " and waits for nature lights itself and there you go.It may not as good as professionalist,but it giggles my eyes when i look at it each time.

Penghujung Dunia Permulaan Akhirat

" Away from Girls and Woman.It's not because i become homo's,it's because they never give me a chances ".

Macam biasa,masuk office bukak Salwa(laptop tersayang) and it's a big shock,duk terpampang besak gambak ni hakk kat Oh Media !  http://www.facebook.com/ohmedianetwork.One things trigger and make myself tear off,Perempuan perghh,Melayu perghh,dengan Lelaki perghh,pegang Arak perghh.Ok fine,memanglah aku tak baik mane pon.Tapi boleh pikir la kot,aku sendiri mengaku jarang pergi masjid so aku taknak lipatkan lagi dosa aku buat amalan-amalan neraka ni.Kalau nak buat jahat,biar berotak.Aku tak kesah ape masyarakat cakap,ape family kau cakap sekali pon.I don't give a damn care,but when it comes dengan agama and this picture shows it,memang rasa macam " tak perlu pikir pasal kahwin dah kot,apetah lagi pikir pasal perempuan ".I have my lineup friends yang macam gambar ni,and beliefs me they're just a friend to find when you need a laugh and hell not more than that.Even if Kiamat nak dekat with this picture as a proves then aku patut fikir pasal Akhirat lebih daripada perempuan.And yes,aku tak baik and aku tak sesempurna yang lain and sepuluh kali ganda lebih teruk dari orang yang paling teruk.Lebih baik kita menipu untuk sesuatu yang baik,bukan menipu untuk sesuatu yang buruk.Bila lihat gambar ni,aku tak fikir mereka-mereka ni jahat tetapi aku fikir yang aku patut sedar lebih awal daripada mereka.Aku tak layak bercakap tentang kebaikkan,sebab keburukkan datang pada aku sendiri.Salam,one love

Life aren't forever,I may not.

Politicians says : " It's great,it makes Malaysia one of the hottest spot to be visit ".

Economies says : " It's great,the economy can grow faster than before ".

Sociality says : " It's great,we can make more friends than before ".

It's not my way to hate the others.I work at KFC Holdings Berhad,nearby Jalan Sultan Ismail road junction and more importantly nearby all the clubs.Aloha,Beach club,Thai club,Black Magic and etc etc and it's not my attention to be there neither entering it.I saw all the clubbers caught drunk,walking like an idiot plus with the smells,hugging with the girls.They do sure look like in heavens,i watch all of them percisely,ya allah to think it back " ini tanah tumpah darahku,malaysia ?".If these's how the way they overcome with their problems,i feel sorry but don't compare scars with me.I may not be strong even with my own religion and beliefs but i can asure that i can divide positive and negative stuff and activities.Hey premature clubbers,wakeup !

I live for what i see,not what i saw.

Salam,setelah sekian lama purbakala tak update blog ( kerja,kerja,kerja) haha and now update semula sementelah diri ini berada dalam keadaan " self-destruction pattern " dengan dia,herhhh.So,untuk tidak nampak terlalu ketara yang hati ini hancus terpaksalah membusykan diri *padahal tak busy pon.Macam biasa,tangkap gambar,menconteng kertas putih,listening Radiohead especially " Let Down ",perhhh and here's some pathetic outcome from my working hour.

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p/s - We don't need a 3000 ringgit of DSLR,we just need to stay alert of what nature telling us.